Pain n Chaos is all dats left in ma Mind

Dis aint a Dead End

I've only started lovin Ishpreet n dis da begenin

ma lyfs lyk dat n liv it dis way

i've alwys lovd lonelyness... it kills me bt i lov it

its said ... u liv ur lyf against ur will at som point f tym u'll bcom addict 2 it

u'll find it difficult 2 surviv widout dat very thing u hated da most

it'll bcom an inevitabl part f ur lyf

n u'll follow it lyk a machine code

monotonous it myt make u feel

hatred will start carvin ur texture

till da moment of truth

dat will b wen u act against it

revolt, explod n reveal da real U

well in ma lyf it seems dat ma moment of truth s way byond ma lyfs end

Da bubble mountain

dat describes ma lyf da best, coz its an equilibrium ...

its been mor dan 20 yrs since i startd buildin it

lyk a bird, twig by twig n hay by hay ... n it kept me safe n sound through out

well dere were failures, small n large n some were everlastin

its believd dat if, for da mountain 2 stay, against da gust it had 2 giv up certain bubbles n re-establish a nu equilibrium

ma bubbles were ma relations wid dose hu fed, raised n mentored me

n each lamina wuz a label of love i'd 4 em

lyk boulders dey held me strong ...

Ek chhoti si love story

It wuz pretty usual, a day, lyk ne other... I logedin as I wok up. I strtd scrapin n scrollin.
Hours went by , n jus den i notcd a new topc jus bing created. It sd question da question n I typd in ma q..
Mujhse pyaar karogi ...

Reply wuz frm anothr frnd ...tu kya brad pitt hai jo tujhse woh ishq karega? ...

Well it wuz obvios n den da creator askd again...tum ladaye toh nahi kar rahe??????? ...

Dats when IU felt dat she wuz seein al dis so i askd ...hum tumse pyaar kar rahe h
lekin yeh beech meim kyun aa rahe h ...

She did reply to it bt nt so +vely. I kinda felt i'd an edge over so startd proposin n along came da shayaris.
Dere i wuz ryt well she kinda lykd ma shayaris so i added hr as ma frend n she acceptd ...

Al dis wuz jus 4 fun until i raely srtd thinkin bak, coz til den i'd neva writen a shayari nt evn in Eng n Hindi wuz way beyond.
N da xchanges lastd perhaps 4 2 dys.

Ma nly hop wuz dat she sd she wuz impressd, so I wrot hr a testmonl too. Well dat dy v talkd a lot n I almost almost proposd her n she sd she alredy hs a bf...


Nw wat du u think i wud've felt lyk ??? Crestfallen ...
Nay i wuz hapy coz it wuz da 1st tym I'd proposd a gal n she sd she hd a bf. Dere wuz hop n lots n lots f it. So da nxt day I continued convincin hr abt ma mindset n approaches.
She sd she lyks me well more imp she dosnt hv ne bfs.
I must b hapy nw bt I aint coz she lied 2 me, it wuz n xcuse 2 evade ma proposl, mos imprtntly ... lemme xplain it


I wuz alredy in luv wid 2 othrs tho I neva told em. Y? Becoz I beliv in a certain theo dat says 1 can say smthin in 2 ways

Its rainin here or its rainin somwher, da cold breeze s says so

da 2nd can b a bettr way 2 say dat
Dinn get it ?? I meant it wuz bettr 2 let sm1 kno in da cours f tym dat I luvd hr, so late dat she wont b able 2 return evn a fraction f ma luv f a lyf tym...